Tuesday, February 10, 2015

In Search of the Real Possibilities

At the pivotal Hard Times Cafe
Hello everyone! How are you on this snowy Tuesday? 
It's been quite a while now, hasn't it? I wanted to update you guys on what I've been doing in my first year of University, but I realized that to do so would take a full novel! This post is going to be incredibly unorganized and full of random thoughts and pictures--kind of scatter brained--but that feels like the most effective way to communicate with you: the way I'm thinking and experiencing these things in the first place.

In my film class titled "On TV" we spend quite a bit of time learning about the different psychologies we can apply to film analysis (or in this case, Television analysis). One of my favorite topics has been the philosophies of Jacques Lacan. He hypothesized that humans have different levels of existence: the imaginary, the symbolic, and the real. The symbolic stage is that in which most of us live and thrive in; it represents the language we use to express ourselves and how it's simply symbolic and always lacks a full and complete expression.


(I have no idea what I would do w/o her!!)

Even though we run through most of our lives in the symbolic stage, the real stage is a place of true experience. It's where words fail completely. I've taken these theories into my own philosophy to help explain some aspects of my thinking I never quite understood. 

All my past thoughts, actions, desires, and experiences have been in pursuit of this "realness." Some sort of transcendent living that has to be achieved. While I'm not taking it so literally to Lacan's theories, I think it's comforting to have a goal (even if unachievable) to push myself out into the world.

In just the past 6 months I've experienced all that I hoped to experience coming to Minneapolis, and even so much more.

Most of my experiences have been centered around music. Going to shows, sitting in dorm rooms playing records, walking across campus to some uplifting beat. I've accidentally created a soundtrack to my college experience. I've been exposed to SO much great music I never would have even thought to listen to.

FKA Twigs was one of the most amazing experiences I've had this year (if not ever). I was in a really bad place before her show, and I almost didn't go because of how upset I was. But I went and it felt like something opened up in me and changed. I've never been to a show where the whole crowd just stands in awe, swaying in silence. I normally go to shows to dance and go insane... but this was different. She was like this transcendent human being.

(try to be as cute as we are, I dare you)

Over winter break I hadn't planned on getting a tattoo. I was driving my best friend/soul mate Tristan to the tattoo parlour, and after she got all her papers from the front desk, the information lady turned to me and said,"Are you getting a tattoo too, honey?" I decided then that I might as well go for it. I had planned on getting a quote on my upper left forearm for quite some time, but I had no idea what I wanted to get.

On my way to pick Tristan up, Rock & Roll by the Velvet Underground (from Loaded) came on shuffle on my phone. The Velvet Underground is my absolute favorite band; their music means so much to me. That song resonates so closely to me it's as if it were written from my thoughts. Lou Reed originally wrote the song about himself. He said that if it weren't for Rock & Roll music, he wouldn't have known that life existed outside his small town. It's not a literal life saving; it's a figurative, spiritual notion of opening up to what beauty life has to offer.

I knew I had to get that quote. There was no doubt in my mind.

The natural world has become really crucial to how I see myself now. I've always been fond of the outdoors, but it wasn't until leaving the suburbs and moving into a city that I've fully begun to appreciate its impact upon me.

These 3 people are what made my being home so special. I thought going home was going to be boring, and nothing spectacular would happen. I was wrong, and I have Tristan, Kasen, and Josh to thank for that.

Katie gifted me Alexa Chung's It as a Christmas gift, and the CD on the right is by the band DENNIS, which was started by someone I know through my school's radio station.

On the left: ~aesthetic~

On the right: an amazing trip to Woodfield mall I had over break

I think I've been nervous to post on here, or YouTube, or even Instagram sometimes based off of a conversation I had with my friends the other day. Even if we're passionate about something, the thought of failure may drive us to be fearful.

I think I'm done being fearful.


Sunday, October 19, 2014

OOTD: A little Daphne, A Little Velma

How are you doing on this lovely Sunday?
I had come to the realization that October is already almost over, and I hadn't taken advantage of the pretty fall weather or anything yet! So today I went outside with a friend and took some cute lil outfit photos for you guys.

I love this dress not only because I think it's adorable, but also because it completely reminds me of Daphne from Scooby Doo! I can't take that title too heavily, though, because so many people constantly tell me that I remind them of Velma. I'll take the middle road. :)


| Dress: Vintage from eBay | Belt: Vintage from Via's Vintage | Socks: eBay | Shoes: Bait Footwear | Glasses: Rialto Frames from Bonlook |

Seriously though, where has all of the time gone? I can hardly believe that this month is almost over; I guess I get so lost in the week to the weekend that time just starts to fly by. I'm a little upset that I haven't been documenting my first few months of college as well as I would have liked, but at the same time, it's good that I'm focusing on just being in the present. 

I hope you have a wonderful & relaxing end to your weekend!


Sunday, October 12, 2014

Outfit of the Day: A Lost Fairy

| Top: Thrifted Skirt: eBay Socks: Nordstrom Crown: DIY |

This outfit is from a few months back (right before I left for college!) when I went to the renaissance faire, and I couldn't help but dress up like a little fairy. ^_^ 

The renaissance faire is something I look forward to every summer. I love the excuse to dress up, throw tomatoes at bad comedians, and listen to really great music. 

On my way I noticed the prettiest little patch of wildflowers along route 45 in Wisconsin, and I  couldn't resist the urge to have a little impromptu photo shoot. (Thank goodness I had my camera!) It was funny, because at one point this couple in a car pulled over and asked if everything was okay--I was just taking pictures, haha!


Wednesday, October 8, 2014

A Blue Envelope

I left my heart at your house,
I slipped a dainty, blue envelope
Quickly through the door.
I folded the edges
As sweetly as I could,
But still my heart remains,
Lying on your floor.

I left my heart in your garden,
The birds sang softly
As it fell slowly to the ground.
Like a petal it floated
In the summer’s air,
But still my heart remains
Untouched, without a sound.

I left my heart in your hands,
I passed it over, just for a moment,
Still chilled from the dew,
Warmed with a subtle hint
Of my affection.
And still my heart remains
With you.

I wrote this poem for my poetry class, and it's one of my poems I feel is actually worth sharing. My professor told me this reminded her of something a female poet from the 19th century would have written, and I love that. 


Monday, October 6, 2014

A Style Icon: Anna Karina (Alphaville)

Hello everyone! How are you today?
I thought I would do (yet another) style icon post today. I guess you could say I have been feeling especially inspired recently. One of my favorite films (of all time) is the 1965 film Alphaville directed by Jean-Luc Godard. It is absolutely gorgeous and interesting and essentially perfect. Every time I watch it, I am always reminded of how much I love Anna Karina. Not only is she a fantastic actress, but I feel drawn to every persona she plays in films. She is the epitome of an "it" girl.

All of the above are my four favorite photographs of her! They are all so absolutely gorgeous, and I can't help but feel incredibly inspired by her persona. 

All images are from google images

Me recreating the first image (hahaha)

Mod French 60s: Anna Karina 1

Modern 60s: Anna Karina 2

The first outfit is a more direct translation from Alphaville to real life; whereas, my second Karina-inspired outfit is much more adapted to what a modern, 60s outfit would look like with a pop of color. I love the interesting contrast between the B&W of the first and the largely-colorful second. 

Which do you prefer?